It has been sometime since I've last posted. I know its must be annoying but I am inherently lazy. If it makes you feel any better I have written a few posts in my head. I'll start my update by saying I have not weighed myself since I have started this blog. I know its terrible. But I literally find the scale to be a bully of sorts. I step on him and he makes fun of me and taunts me. "Look at you fatty you weigh this much" that is all I here when I step on him. I think it is very much human nature to avoid such conflicts as this, so I have. I do find my action, one of cowardice. So I am going to change it. When I arrive home from work I plan on stepping on that scale and taking the abuse. The abuse really isn't from anyone but myself so I need no be so afraid of it.
One interesting thing has just occured to me. I think I may be avoiding the scale to avoid the issue. You know I have been on this diet and for the most part I have been doing a completely horrible job (until fairly recently, that is) of keeping my diet in check. I have been cheating, using performance enhancing drugs (soda, fries, sweets), but very unknowingly to the public. I have been lying to them and to myself, acting as if without then I am nothing without them I cannot succeed. In reality I can. I believe that a real self investigation is helpful in a weightloss journey thus that is what I am doing.
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