The Plan

Naturally, like my true self I have procrastinated on yet another thing. This time I have procrastinated with the making and starting of new years resolutions. I will be honest, part of it is because (here comes the sidetracked soliloquy) I do not believe a new year needs to pass for someone to change their life. In fact I have started some of my "resolutions" way before the new year. This brings up the important issue of life changes. A lot of people want to change but why don't they. For me the real answer lies in the fact that I'm scared. Plain scared of change it has nothing to do with anything else. I was scared that I would lose myself and lose what I have become this awesome cool dude. Recently I have discovered something about myself which compels me to change. It's heartbreaking don't continue to read if you can't handle it.

My life revolves around the constant revelations which are produced by the revision of my past. I have realized I hate who I am. I have been living in this reality where within I love who I am and there is nothing wrong with me, except for a few tiny thing, like a curse every once in a while. Just kidding, its more than that. I hate how lazy and uninspired I am to do a.lot of things, I really am driven by fear, the fear of failure. Really it has taken hold and I intend to break it. I have never been on a date, for fear of rejection. I have never tried to lose weight for fear of not being able to do it. Also for the fear of not being able to eat some of the good foods I eat now. Really I see this as a move of cowardice and I intend to.end it. I will do all that I have been afraid of doing. With my newest job I have realized that I really can succeed at what I do if I work hard. Not to sound corny but it's true. I have never really tried hard at anything in life, and I could have done so much better but alas it isn't over and I vow to try harder. So now that I have finished my soliloquy time to layout the stencil or outline for 2013

Step 1, go hard in the mutha fucking paint.

1. Actually use my workout equipment and drop to 200lbs. Only so I can return to France without being shamed.

2. Write and or read everyday because you are never to learn or express yourself through words ever.

3. Take my fucking diet seriously.

4. Step up my fashion game because hoes love a well dressed guy.

5. Move to the city. I have some financial issues which will keep me here until June but it's essentially that I leave my hometown because it is draining my soul. I have expanded beyond the limits of my town and need to live somewhere more broad that can hold my soul.

6. Don't conceive a child. Disastrous situation.

7. Take over the world.